To...Change....

September 19th, 2009. That was my last post on Credo. Thats a hell lot of time.
A year has passed and i consider myself lucky to still remember the password and login id!!

So howz everyone? Doin' good?

Really wanted to get back to some writing! Good news for Baroda Gang!! Woohooo!!

Was in TCS a year back. Things have changed since then. Major Goof-ups. Minor Goof-ups. Big Letdowns. Bigger Letdowns. Unemployment. Joblessness. Fear of being a nobody. Joining a Call Center out of sheer desperation.Then that Sickening feeling. Working with some of the wierdest people of this face of the Earth. Family issues. Frustration. Venting it out on near and dear ones. Dad askin me to take a break. Goa with friends. Tattoos. New Religion, New Gods. Along with the existing ones. Finding myself again. Becoming human again. Self Confidence. Quitting the Call Center out of sheer disgust. Know what i want from life. Pursuit. Clutching it in my hands and not letting it slip like before. Bangalore. Manipal University : MBA - M&E Division BABY!!!

Hell YEAH!!!

Never....and i say NEVER....have i felt so light and good!! I can FLY for the love of god!!

To early to say if i have met good people. But i sure have met people i want to be with. People i want to work with. People who share my wave-length. There are crazy ones....there are the nosie ones...there are the sweet and cuddly ones....there are the flirts....there are the people whom you just wanna squish!

Iv got a class full of humans and not extra-terrestrials!! And i like this Change.
Freedom is something i have craved for. And i promise to my parents, that i will not let you down.
All i wanted was a chance to live my life my way. Just wanted to try and know how it feels. So far so good maa.

The day still haunts me. My dreams crashing down on me. "Nasrun Minal Lahi..Wah Fatahun Kareeb" is what I kept murmuring time and again like a retard. "God Give me the strength to Endure" is what it means. And By GOD it worked wonders!!

What I learned over the past one year is something that has burried itself in my spine. Other people had problems too. Bigger ones. I learned to look at them with respect and sympathy. Life gives me a reality check every time i scoff at someone's misery.

I got the change i so badly needed in my life. A detour was on the cards. Bangalore happened. Iv got 2 years to undo all those goof-ups. Aint so hard either. I know i will. And yeah.....im human too! Im allowed to make mistakes!! God told me so!!


To...Change.....


- Raaghav Ramachandran